Feeling kind of blue

Well...it's been a while. huh. Feeling kind of blue today and I needed a place to put some words. I don't really think I want anyone reading this, but didn't want to put it in my journal where there would be definitely no possibility of anyone reading it...sometimes it's just nice to put something out there. Had a nice, long, relaxing day at home by myself. When I say at home, I mean on the island. It's nice not to have to leave the island for anything all day and when I get to stay, I consider it a whole day at home. I even did some kayaking and freaked myself out trying to pick up a horseshoe crab that I was not 100% sure was dead. So all in all a great day. ...but now I'm feeling blue. Because I've been by myself all day. Which is the way I wanted it. I could have gone for tea with someone today, but I said, "No, I can't" because today was my one day at home for who knows how long. I needed this. I did. It's true. But now I'm sad. I didn't even get to check on the cats I was supposed to check on because the bridge closed down. So not my fault, but I still feel guilty about it of course...and sad. I didn't get to say goodbye to the cats. I said, "See you later" and left in a hurry (so they wouldn't escape) with both of them mad at me for putting them in the basement while the painter was working. I never got to open the door and say, "Come on out and have some dinner!" The family came home and didn't need me to come back, which should have been a blessing because going over the bridge and all the way over 2 more rivers takes a while even without traffic, but I'm sad. Sad sad sad and now I want cats. I'm not even a cat person. Would it be weird and awkward if I asked the family to let me say goodbye to their cats tomorrow? Yes. Definitely yes. Oh gosh. Last night I was looking for a movie in their basement, but didn't find anything that really struck a chord, so I settled on "Lady and the Tramp," which I hadn't seen since way before I was a lady (I mean I was a very little kid, a girl not a boy). I had a dream I found this very small dog with a very long nose...like a dachshund, but not. Anyway, I decided to keep it, even though it was a little dog and I was so happy to have something that would give me company. Then I woke up and no dog. Then I fell back asleep and dreamed this kid at school was misbehaving. I liked the dog dream better. Anyway, I've got a movie all picked out for myself to watch tonight. It's got Maggie Smith in it and it looks pretty good, quirky, hopefully. I better get started or I'm looking at a 2am bedtime. I get to skip a service tomorrow, though. I'm not singing and Sunday School's been cancelled. Hallelujah! I'm sorry, Lord, I didn't mean that to sound so much like it did. I'm just happy to have some extra time for snoozin'. OK, well, as Meg Ryan said in You've Got Mail, "Goodnight, dear Void." (What was her character's name in that movie?) Anyway bye. No idea when I'm gonna come back to this. (Kathleen Kelly, that's what it was.)